On again, Off again

I seem to be one of those "on-again, off-again” bloggers and although it did not start the year on my New Year’s Resolutions, I think I am adding it. I mean it’s almost February, but who cares?

 

Why blog again? I think I’ve got a lot to say, and maybe a lot to offer. Well, to my very, very few readers (but who’s counting, anyway?).

 

I’ve got a few ideas for blogs. I wasn’t going to throw my personal life online but after reading a very convincing blog that changed my mind on a few things I figured someone may have something to learn from my life mistakes, and hey, there may be quite a few of them. Maybe not the way to just jump in and start blogging about something so important to me, but because of the relationship turmoil in my life right now, it is what is on my mind!

 

*And FYI, I am organized, I like lists so a lot of my blogs will appear in that format*

 

 

I work hard every day to become the ideal person that I want myself to be. No one is perfect, but I like having something to work towards. I always have goals and resolutions to better myself. But if I am putting so much towards myself, why wouldn’t I want someone who can put a lot into the relationship as well. So I came up with a list (see, I told you!) of what I want.

 

I want a guy who….

• Takes me on a legitimate date. Comes by, picks me up. The whole shebang.
• Knows that I love dessert, he could really change my whole day with a cookie.
• Texts me, initiates the conversation, and asks how MY day has gone.
• Is willing to stay at home and have a movie night. I’ll even cook!
• Will hold my hand in public, not a lot, just enough to show me he knows I love it.
• Will kiss me on the forehead.
• Legitimately thanks me for making dinner, doing his laundry, and driving him home from the bar.
• Isn’t afraid to put his arm around me in public. And does it frequently because he is so happy to have me by his side.
• Won’t complain about taking pictures with me, no matter how goofy.
• Will actually put those pictures up,
• Cooks dinner with me, and if I am really lucky, for me every once in a while.
• Brings me lunch because my day was so crazy I didn’t have time to eat.
• Tells me I am beautiful when I am having a bad hair day, without makeup, or simply for no reason at all.

 

I don’t think relationships should be about one can offer the other, but how special they can make you feel. Life isn’t about the person you can live with, I can live with anyone for a short enough period of time and cheap enough rent, but when someone walks out of your life and a weeks later you still don’t know if anyone could ever fill your heart the way they do, maybe its worth fighting for.

 

And maybe this list is pointless, because at the end of the day they still haven’t done one of these things, but you love them more than you could have imagined.