Food for thought.... Or just food!

I am a foodie. Hardcore. I think about food a lot. I like planning my meals, trying new recipes and entertaining and cooking for others. It's my thing! I spend a few minutes everyday checking out FoodGawker every day. I love the recipes from there.

And you want to know another one of the bright sides to me recently being single? I can cook WHATEVER I want. I don't have to worry about what he likes (which was pretty similar to a 5-year-old) and included Mac n Cheese, Hot dogs, tacos. And if there weren't specific things with a meal, I had to hear about it. Not that I don't love mac n cheese, it may be my one of my top 5 favorite foods, but as someone who enjoys cooking (and spends time at the gym trying to get into shape), mac n cheese isn't ideal on the food list!


However, here's what I plan on cooking over the weekend...

Creamed Spinach (Lightened up! Of course!!)

And PW's Favorite Pizza. This has long been on my list of things to make so I am beyond excited to have a weekend to make it!

Well I while I am not spending a day or two in Ft. Worth at the stock show! For all of my livestock people... Can't wait to see you in Ft. Worth :)

Check back for recipes, who knows what other recipes I will get to try. Now that I only have to please myself while cooking (Oh, but I guess approval of Annie is essential too...) I've got a lot more food for thought! Ok ok, just food!

Thank You...

I am known for turning to my music in any situation. When I am happy, I've got my playlist. When I am hurt and upset, well there's a playlist for that, too. And sometimes I just want my iPod to play on shuffle and see which of my 1,300 songs come at me.

There is one band I really like when I need some inspiration to get up and move on. Bomshel. They have a song called Thank You.

Cause I'm standing up as a fighter
Walkin' away a survivor,
Ain't lookin' back.
And here on my own I am happy,
You're leavin' me only taught me who I am,
So thank you.

One of the toughest things I deal with is remembering that what does not kill me will only make me stronger. Every situation, bad or good, has turned me into the person I am.

Right now I have to tell myself that I deserve someone who meets my criteria. I know there are always exceptions, but I also know that I can’t settle for someone who does not deserve me. It is a hard concept to grasp, but it’s something we all have to do.

So just remember when you are struggling, BE A FIGHTER! I think you’ll be surprised just how strong you really are!

On again, Off again

I seem to be one of those "on-again, off-again” bloggers and although it did not start the year on my New Year’s Resolutions, I think I am adding it. I mean it’s almost February, but who cares?

 

Why blog again? I think I’ve got a lot to say, and maybe a lot to offer. Well, to my very, very few readers (but who’s counting, anyway?).

 

I’ve got a few ideas for blogs. I wasn’t going to throw my personal life online but after reading a very convincing blog that changed my mind on a few things I figured someone may have something to learn from my life mistakes, and hey, there may be quite a few of them. Maybe not the way to just jump in and start blogging about something so important to me, but because of the relationship turmoil in my life right now, it is what is on my mind!

 

*And FYI, I am organized, I like lists so a lot of my blogs will appear in that format*

 

 

I work hard every day to become the ideal person that I want myself to be. No one is perfect, but I like having something to work towards. I always have goals and resolutions to better myself. But if I am putting so much towards myself, why wouldn’t I want someone who can put a lot into the relationship as well. So I came up with a list (see, I told you!) of what I want.

 

I want a guy who….

• Takes me on a legitimate date. Comes by, picks me up. The whole shebang.
• Knows that I love dessert, he could really change my whole day with a cookie.
• Texts me, initiates the conversation, and asks how MY day has gone.
• Is willing to stay at home and have a movie night. I’ll even cook!
• Will hold my hand in public, not a lot, just enough to show me he knows I love it.
• Will kiss me on the forehead.
• Legitimately thanks me for making dinner, doing his laundry, and driving him home from the bar.
• Isn’t afraid to put his arm around me in public. And does it frequently because he is so happy to have me by his side.
• Won’t complain about taking pictures with me, no matter how goofy.
• Will actually put those pictures up,
• Cooks dinner with me, and if I am really lucky, for me every once in a while.
• Brings me lunch because my day was so crazy I didn’t have time to eat.
• Tells me I am beautiful when I am having a bad hair day, without makeup, or simply for no reason at all.

 

I don’t think relationships should be about one can offer the other, but how special they can make you feel. Life isn’t about the person you can live with, I can live with anyone for a short enough period of time and cheap enough rent, but when someone walks out of your life and a weeks later you still don’t know if anyone could ever fill your heart the way they do, maybe its worth fighting for.

 

And maybe this list is pointless, because at the end of the day they still haven’t done one of these things, but you love them more than you could have imagined.